This is it. I’m going to do it this time. Really, I am.
I’ve told myself that over and over for the last
year and a half two years. And by “it,” I mean start a blog and stick to it. I’ve made at least a half-dozen attempts to start and maintain a blog over the last 15 years. And each time, I’ve failed. I don’t know what it is. I like to write. For the most part, I have a compelling story. I have a house to renovate. I have projects to complete. I’m a chronic DIY’er because I love to learn how to do new things. Because of that DIY addiction, I’d like to think that I have many things that I can show you how to do. I can write a mean tutorial. In other words, I have the ability to do this and most of all, I have plenty of material.
So…what has been holding me back?
It might be, in part, the fear of failure. I haven’t been completely successful at everything I’ve done in the past and I know that’s okay. Not everyone succeeds at every single thing they attempt and all I can hope for is that each time I’ve learned something from my successes–and my failures. I believe a person learns more from her failures than her successes. Sometimes time success comes just in trying something new and for me, new can be scary. Sometimes you just have to “do it afraid.”
While the fear of failure definitely plays into my hesitation, it’s probably also fear of commitment. To do this blogging thing properly, one must treat it seriously. I know blogs are a lot of work. I haven’t always had the time to devote to building a blog, but I’m in a totally different place this time. After 15 years worth of attempts, there are no longer any hungry infants and no curious toddlers to watch like a hawk. In fact, as much as I hate to admit it, within the next four years, I will be making the transition to being an empty nester (gulp!). My time is soon to be my own. Excuse me while I go vomit at the prospect of that….
Now is my time. It’s time to stop waiting for the perfect moment, the perfect picture, the perfect project. Perfectionism is my middle name. It’s a disorder. I’m working on it.
Everyone has a story and as this blog unfolds, you will learn more about mine.
What fear have you had to conquer before you could move on with your dream?